Bullying during childhood is common but is nonetheless a profound experience that can leave lasting scars, influencing the adult we grow into. Often, we can be left with a sense insecurity or self-criticism, as if the bully’s voice has got trapped in our heads, however much we want to leave them behind.
It can also be really tough to feel somehow like we don’t fit in. Humans have a strong, instinctual need to feel a sense of belonging and acceptance from the group, because historically, if we were rejected by the group we wouldn’t survive. It can therefore feel like a real, existential threat to not fit in and consequentially feel terribly distressing.
Sometimes individuals are diagnosed with ADHD, autism or other neurodiversity in adulthood and realise that the “not fitting in” was not because they were different per se, but just outnumbered by neurotypical children who were not good at understanding them.
Therapy can help you understand these experiences better, and start to let go of any lingering self-criticism, shame, and feelings of alienation and aloneness; towards feelings of self-acceptance and belonging.